Stalked incessantly by paparazzi at his home in Long Beach last year, James entered a 30-day stint at the Sierra Tucson treatment center in Arizona where he said he dealt with childhood and anger management issues. Once known as the star of Discovery Channel's "Monster Garage" and the king of motorcycles, James became infamous as the husband who cheated on "America's Sweetheart." That family also includes his first wife, Karla, who lives in a guest house on the property. I think for the first time in their lives, they can depend on me to be there and I think the life here is better, you know, for the family." "And like, eliminated all of the things that distracted me from being a dad. His new home was an escape "to get out of California," James said, and since he's no longer putting in 15-hour days at West Coast Chopper, he said he has been able to develop a new, better relationship with his three children, Chandler, Jesse Jr. "I need to take care of them and not worry about the one that I don't, you know, and I think that's the lesson." "I could only cry so much about until I have to suck it up and keep a stiff upper lip and realize, Hey, three kids that I do have," James said. James said not seeing the son he thought he would have in his life has been painful for him, but he had to accept that he would no longer be in his life. "I've never seen Louie since everything happened, so a year," he said, adding that Sunny had only seen Bullock "a couple of times," but that there has been "no contact at all for several months." Bullock later adopted Louie as a single parent. James said he had hoped that by moving to Austin, their youngest daughter Sunny, who was close with Bullock, would get to see the film star, and he would be able to have a relationship with Louie, the baby the couple was adopting. But he said he and Bullock don't speak to each other. "So I don't transfer it and keep it going, like my parents did."Īfter closing up the business that made him famous, West Coast Choppers in Long Beach, Calif., the 42-year-old James bought a home on 15 acres in the countryside near Austin, Texas, where Bullock also has a home. that was like a lesson to work on myself and fix what's wrong with me," James told Mabrey. "I think, you know, a marriage ending, all this crazy stuff. James told of how his family has never been the same since his affair led to a nasty, public divorce from Bullock and cost him the chance to be close to the baby the couple was in the process of adopting. I'm sorry it went down the way it did, but I forgive myself and now I can move on." "Just because I cheated on my wife and got busted for it, and it became a whole media s-tstorm, it doesn't mean that I'm not valuable.
"I need to come out of the shadows and regain what I do best," he told ABC News' Vicki Mabrey.